Introduction

In case some of you may not have realised by older posts, I have a problem. In fact, I have several problems.

Two that go hand in hand, however; is alcohol and typing online. Much like in the real world, where you talk and talk and talk and talk, when I'm online, I can't shut up. This can be off-putting to some people; but I have in the past attempted to channel this by other means.

I tried to write short stories and poems / songs - I even tried to record music (Some of this can be found via my soundcloud page - Watch the speakers, some are terribly loud due to my lack of mixing experience!). Most of it is terrible, but it is still a document as to my mental state, feelings, thoughts and emotions at the time.

Whilst previously, I used to publish anything and everything up on facebook, to the annoyance of most of my "friends" (and the delight of others, as it was seemingly something to do); I now just keep them locked away on my PC as Notepad documents as and when I write them.

I have also began to cut down my drinking at times, so therefore do not feel so turbulent in myself. I no longer drink to pass out (unless I have a serious craving, then I drink AND pass out, not to), and therefore I write a lot less frequently. I have not picked up a guitar now in anger for 2 years - I lost my inclination for doing so a year after the death of my mother, as I felt I couldn't justify anything any longer - if not more, and it's vaguely worrying. I used to enjoy jamming along, no matter how bad with my Jagmaster, keyboard, or what have you, and finding out alternative chords in an avant-garde kind of way. There never has been any technique to my style of writing or playing, other than just do what you feel at the time.

Whether you feel that this warrants a need to facilitate a nurturing approach to my creativity, or I should just stop is down to you, yourself.

I shall therefore begin publishing things that I have wrote on a near-daily basis; in no certain order, just so you can at least attempt to see what I was thinking, how I was feeling; and least importantly, how you feel about them.

Regards,