47. Fall

Another piece of me has died today
I asked myself to simply go away.
When I thought about life I realised
That I was mesmerised
By all that that life can be summised as
Was simply "Fuck it all"

The day has come that the shit's so thick
I can stir it with a stick
And yet nothing shall ever occur of any use.
I felt lost in confusion
As I've been abusive to myself
And it'll never end.

Fall....
Into that void
Never to be mistaken again
I was never meant to be alive.

Fall....
Into slumber
I've finally
Lost that inner hunger.

I smoke, sleep and drink, drink, drink
But never stop to think
Of what I'm putting people through
Yet I understand at just one glance
That I needed you.
I needed someone who could lead me through.

Time so easily comes and goes
Yet they'll never know
What you've been through
You lay awake at night hoping for someone to help you through.
The level is there
But your shit scared
Of all that you thought was true
You smile and advise while down inside
You've lost what sense of pride you had.

Fate has played to you
A fucked up hand that will always lose.

Fall....
Into that void
Never to be mistaken again
I was never meant to be alive.

Fall....
Into slumber
I've finally
Lost that inner hunger.